New Years New You???

Ahhh yes.  The new year.  A time for new resolutions, getting healthy, learn something new, and organize.  Something about January makes me (and a lot of others) believe that a new year means a new start.  Nothing you have done in the past year matters at this moment, all is erased and forgotten and the world is now your oyster.
Ha! Yes, I am the one who makes all those resolutions and more.  Although it is one month into the new year and to be honest, I have been pretty good about keeping them.  I believe the statistic is that 6 weeks is the time for new year's resolutions to fizzle out. So we will see how long I can do this.
My husband says you don't need a new year to start a resolution, which is true, but there is just something about a new year that makes you feel as if you can conquer anything.  You can learn a new language, or take that vacation, or lose those unwanted poundage.  It is a time to make a goal and stick to it.  And with this being the year that I am leaving my twenties and embarking on my *gulp* thirties.  Yes yes, I am being overly dramatic about this.  I never thought I would be someone who would have a breakdown at thirty, heck I had a breakdown at 25!  Not sure why, I guess I feel I should be farther along in my life, not only professionally but personally as well.  No babies yet, but soon hopefully on that front.  I figure that being older makes you realize time is short and that if you want to do something, now is the time.
Now, don't get me wrong, I am very happy with my life, there are stressful and trying times, but I have become a better person because of all those items.  So, I am not depressed or unhappy with my life, I guess I would say I am just a little let down at myself that I haven't accomplished more in my life.  I always had grandiose dreams of somehow making a difference in this world somehow or affecting people in some way.  So, I guess the huge letdown with my age would probably be that I am realizing that I am not going to be a famous singer or a leader of a small country.  :)
Although one of my very good friends told me that I should never give up on my dreams. If you give up then you will regret the fact that you gave up on your dreams.  Very profound, maybe we can still change and have an affect on people in way we don't even know.